Monday, March 26, 2007 , 4:32 PM Y
Waiting For You..
Have you ever felt useless? Unwanted? So paranoid that you suspect everyone's out to get you? I'm so far from other ppl. I don't know who's close to me anymore. I look at other people and they seem to want to get away from me.
Paranoia, I hate this feeling. Everytime I walked I feel eyes on me. I feel like they tynk I'm horrible. It's horrible to feel this freaking insecureness. Sometimes I feel a black hole would swallow me up.
That's why if people see me walking alone, I'll be glaring at everyone. Unless it's old ladies, I would smile of course. But I can't help it. The world's not against me. It's more that I'm against the world. The harder I push, the harder it is to change my personality.
I walked with Sharon and the other's today. And I felt freakingly left out. Isit that bad? To tynk even your own friends don't want you? Tch, I hate being pisces.
But I slept in maths class todae, the whole period and Mr Teo never said anything I was surprised. Hahakz I'm still happy.
Poem of the day?
I like the feeling of your hands on my waist,
As you hold me tight towards yours chest,
Telling me of all the problems that we faced,
We passed the test,
Fate threw us together, They can't break us apart,
Even if it's a little, Hope lives in our heart,
The need for comfort over-riding, our fears,
There's a need to hold our love ones near,
Weak as it is, It's real,
Our ideals, our dreams, what we feel,
Tied together with a red thread,
Twisted together, don't need to fret,
There's no such thing as a forever,
But our love will last an eternity,
In our hearts like an everlasting reminder,
It's not forever, let's make the best of it
Love you all!!
Nisa,
Signing out
